Blocked

I had loads of sleep troubles last night... but that's not the topic.

I literally sent one message a few days ago.

":) been a while. Hope everything's good on your side. Myself I'm doing well.
Take care, see you later. 🕊"

I felt a strange numbness a couple dozens minutes ago. Then I had a weird feeling and checked WhatsApp. Profile pic gone, and the little trick I use to find out if I'm blocked didn't work.

I'm shocked. Speechless. Shivering. 

Did she get scared? Does she truly want me out of her life?

Did my message awaken too much in her?

Because I know she's that type. To clamp down hard.

I literally sent one pebble in the sea. It turns out that even a small pebble can make a tsunami.

On my dad's fucking birthday at that.

I'm cold.

Hopoe. Is this over? Forever? Or are you just taking refuge?

You want to get rid of me or did you just...

want to get rid of how badly you were worked up?

Either way.

I wish I had the chance to say I love you.

So much.